A Former Dream

I had it in my head since kindergarten that I would eventually become a teacher when I got older. I was aiming towards early childhood for nearly ten years before I chose history to be my major somewhere in my junior year of high school. I still wanted to teach but now at a high school level or maybe even college level one day. I had my college picked out and was ready to go but when I arrived at Concordia University Wisconsin it quickly came apparent that history was more of a hobby then a job. I struggled to keep an interest in classes and soon realized I had to switch things up or I was go to be in serious trouble.

From my experience writing wrestling based content and the positive reviews all throughout school on my ability to write, I decided to look into a writing degree, which led me to my dream job: becoming a writer for the WWE. Noticing that NXT, WWE's developmental territory, was being produced on the campus of an arts school in Florida, I began contacting the college for information about their programs, costs, and possible career opportunities. I shared with them my interest in writing for the company that they had a partnership with and they were very supportive so I began putting together a plan that would consist of dropping out of CUW, taking online classes through the Full Sail University, getting a job and an apartment, and possibly even moving to Florida if possible.

But it wasn't meant to be. I flunked out of school, quite my job, and had to move back home to Michigan so, with no money to pay for a new degree, I was stuck. My dream was out of reach, literally hundreds of miles away, so I lost hope in my future. I sunk into a deep, dark hole of depression that I made no attempt to get out of, I was trapped with nowhere to go. This was a scary place for me to be and it took several months for me to snap out of my 'funk', but it took something even more than some dream to be taken away.

My dad's death in March, 2017, was the kick in the pants I needed to start taking my life seriously, fully understanding now that life is too short to sit and pout when something doesn't go my way. I got a job, started school again, and, to counter my urge to write, started a blog talking about wrestling. I would end up getting sick twice in the span of a year so the blog has been lacking but since it takes me, on average, a month to research and write one 'top 10' blog it is safe to say my 'needs' are being fulfilled.

I am a living testament to anyone who thinks that they will always get their way if they work hard and believe in themselves, that's not always the case. Thinking the devil will cut you some slack just because he's already taken away a parent, loved one, health, income, education, etc. is not true in the slightest. Fight back by saying, "thank you for giving me another lesson in how life really works, but I WILL take something positive out of this and use it to change my life for the better". I've learned more from the past three years from my personal life then anything past or present education could and that is to always find a way to make your dreams come true, even if it means changing it slightly, or completely in some cases.